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Name: Danver
Age: 19
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Tuesday, May 27, 2008
I really hate ppl who count down to their ORD date. I mean i know the anticipation is exciting and i myself can hardly wait but isnt it a bit too desperate to count down to your ORD by days when u have months left. Its like oh i got 205 days of army left. How dumb is that...come on la just take it like a man and just serve time without complaining. Time will fly by much faster than u realise..
Priya dreamt about kissing me. Hm. and she enjoyed it even though it wasnt reality. Hm.
I have been inspired to help out in rescue efforts in sichuan China and myanmar. BUT due to army's restraint, i am helpless. I really want to engage in CIP activities and i swear to God that i will ensure that my life after army would be filled with volunteerism efforts and charitable donations plus regular trips to the temple. It really rejuvenates the mind body and soul. Not only that it would also tame my ego down several notches. All this time its always been about me. Why arent i better than other ppl even though we are of the same age. Why is my life 90% suffering and probably less than 1% happiness and the other % belongs to stagnancy and just pure boredom in my mundane army life. Thus i came to a conclusion that since i have been focusing so much about myself, its high time for me to start caring about the less fortunate. Coz i have always been an egoistic perfectionist, i always compare myself with ppl who are much better than me. But as i serve time in army, i realised that life is not just about achievements and self satisfaction. After all i am a buddhist and i have devoted time to reading the buddhist teachings. Honestly, i feel slightly enlightened. Even though i am still my egoistic self, i am beginning to condemn my double-edged sword and start to see things in a totally different perspective. I guess one factor that really inspired me was when i met saravanan in my workshop. He is the one i respect the most in my army life, because his actions are really not what a normal teenager would do.
The reasons why i respect him:
1) Even though ppl has trampled on his pride and ego, he still helps them without expecting
in return.
2) Without any complaint, he will suffer in silence as he chants faithfully.
3) Because of his devotion to Hinduism, he is willing to sacrifice whatever he has for the sake of
making other ppl happy.
4) There is never an 'i' in his vocab as it is all about 'u'.
5) He has a very optimistic view regarding life issues and society.
6) Most importantly, i am the total opposite of him and most probably i cant achieve what he has
Even so, i still aspire to become more and more like him as he aspires to become more and more like God. Maybe one day....one day i will truly become a better person.
InD!gO plunged into darkness 6:10 AM
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