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Wednesday, June 28, 2006
[21st june]
Dental checkup. 7 cavities! OMG but very small ones..but i dun wanna talk about it..quite painful coz they was drilling and whooping cost of 300 bucks. Study and gym.
[22nd - 23rd june]
Industrial attachment at my uncle's clinic. I was pretty nervous coz i dunno his staff at first..but then when i first reached there..my uncle was already tending to a patient and i was asked to enter the examination room to observe ultrasound scans. It was pretty cool coz i learnt so much more about gynaecology and ultrasound scans. Latest machines and contraceptive methods. His staff were very friendly too. Most pregnant women went there for checkups but there are some with problems too..not gonna elaborate on that though...being a doctor is tough..realised that my uncle and his staff do not eat lunch and they are used to it..workaholics...gosh being doctors..makes me wonder whether i should be a doctor or teacher but i guess i shouldnt think about that now..i should just focus on working hard and achieving fantastic grades for the As. But my uncle did say medicine would be a better choice..but the final choice is still up to me. If i do get a scholarship..i most probably would go UK to study medicine..see how i guess.
[24th june]
Study and gym. Had dinner with my dad at anchorage. Went to queensway to buy training goves finally..15 bucks...but they are good..and they look cool too..tried them out and they are great.
[25th june]
29th Queenstown CC chess competition. Made new friends from ACSi. Augustine Tang and Gabriel. Tough competition coz it was a mix of age groups and gender...and those brainy kids who are like under 10 or 12 have participated in chess camps before..omg i cant believe there is such thing as chess camps...wonder what they do there...talk about chess? Ok anyway i saw this family whose bro and sis are competing..both under 10 i think...he was my first competitor..well lets just say that his has done quite a lot of preparations..his parents gave him chicken essence..got massage..eye exercise..and the dad took out a video cam to take a video of him playing chess...it was quite annoying coz he asked for a friendly match..so i purposely let him win to get him overconfident...and it workeD! Coz when we played the real match...i thrashed him...second opponent was a quiet guy..quite good but beaten him...third one was a pro adult! Loss. 4th one was a kid but i made a careless mistake. 5th and 6th were both girls...may be girls but i didnt show any mercy..so won both...last was with Gabriel! So we decided on a draw and split the cash money...hahahaha it was awesome overall. CCA records yeah!
[26th June]
OMG SCHOOL IS HERE! First day of school when everyone was laughing at each other's hairstyle and new bags and eric bought this super light blue adidas bag that apparently makes him look cute according to the girls in his class...and i cut my hair really really short...makes me look like an ex con. Everyone was present in my class...amazing. Usually its quite a number who is absent. Saw her too...she looks better than before..shall elaborate later. Anyway we were given free apples for no good reason..maybe the school is too rich or the school cannot find of a better way to dispose their rotten apples from fuji...hahaha..
I enjoyed my first chapel for real this time! Coz the singer was awesome..2SD4 bio teacher...she rawked the song man.. really appreciated the songs for once...the thanking as usual..and the speech made by one of the members of staff was very inspiring as it talked about ppl thinking about they being nobodys and how they can overcome this feeling..very applicable in my life.
Lessons were as usual. I love my new math S teacher..he rawkz even though i dunno his name...very smart and funny..haha he is as good as mrs yeo. Cant believe probabilty and discrete random variables can be that tough.
[27th June]
Second day of school..Super long day!! Almost died coz i had 8 periods in a row without any break in between...crazy..i received 9 stackes of bio prelims today...nice huh..Nth much..just boring lessons.
[28th June]
Well quite eventful. Ms michelle tang is a good genetics teacher but seems that ppl gave her feedback saying that she speaks too fast during plant lecture...but i guess she knows that coz she taught me during my bio S days. Oh and she got confused between Pfr and Pr phytochromes..and said 'basically' at least 15 times. But i respect her as a teacher coz she does research and reads up on bio journals..many teachers dun do that...she keeps herself updated and she is really good in bio..she deserves repect for that.
Econs wasnt so demoralising today. Coz i answered my essay correctly. PC talk was boring. Cant wait for SYF coz had SYF briefing today..and its CIP! And we are dropped off at tanjong rhu...had lunch and when i was buying chicken rice..i wanted to ask eric whether he going for chess but i believe my exact words were' eric u going for brian?' Then eric got all hysterical and started laughing like crazy..i couldnt believe what i said and i was laughing too...and we told everyone at the table and we laughed like crazy..then eric said i thought of brian too much and i was like EEEE!!! Hahaha crazy.
Simultaneous chess is tough. Daidee was fun. I saw Joel and the juggler guy showcasing their yoyo tricks! Superb! Makes me wanna play the yoyo again..really cool.
Yup finally caught up with my updates.
Just wanna say that i am not as obsessed as i was before...i just have to continuously psycho myself and put myself down in order to get my mind off her...but it seems that it is hard to steer away from reality...i am trying to erase my mind off her and just wanna remain as friends..but my stupid hormones are thwarting my plans...can sense that she is still tired and really needs help but she has a strong will...well all i can do is continue to offer my help..whether she wants it or not...and force myself to think of her as a friend.
Danver u have no chance..come on face up to reality..prelims and As are coming..whats there to think about her..you are not worthy...it would be an insult to her..what would her friends think...i just want her to be happy..whoever she is with. Haha lame..make myself sound noble only...stupid..
SYF is coming..TK shall prevail and she shall bask in eternal glory. Long live TK Band and the TK spirit!
I really miss paula. Wonder how she is doing now..wonder whether i would meet her during SYF...
InD!gO plunged into darkness 3:14 AM
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Thursday, June 22, 2006
[13th June]
2SD5 Class party. Studied and gym in the afternoon. Supposedly to be at tovya's place but seems that they changed the venue...so went over to michelle's house but on the way i realised that nanyang girls is really huge! As in huge with a capital H...and i thought ACSi was huge...man..ok anyway dad dropped me off at michelle's place and so happened that krishmen was at the door too. Wide spread of food..ranging from ribs to shepherd's pie to salad...very high class for a class party..totally different from the class parties i use to have during TK days...this is what ppl get from rich families...Half the class was there. Michelle's place is a posh place..black marble floor which makes the place look really classy...Dinner was scrumptious and everyone had a great time joking and chatting and eating. Watched world cup after dinner.. s.korea vs togo..we only watched the first half and togo was leading 1-0..ate some rich ice cream and the whole outing costed only 6 bucks...the girls were having girl to girl chat at the swings outside whereas the guys are commenting on soccer. Played with sparklers at the end of the day and took group photos. End of story.
[14th June]
Boring! Study and gym! Gym was especially intensive coz i have been consuming too much fat rich fast food and i need to shed the kilos before school reopens...
[15 June]
Well i am supposed to study and gym till nite but then eric wanted to treat me to MUSE 2...so y not..haha 7.30pm at Victoria concert hall..bad memories of drinking alcohol and other stuff...hahaha but nvm all is cool. The concert schedule is rather interesting..the songs played were great too..i would say its better than MUSE 1...ACS band and recruit band played too..then the trombone saxo woodstring and percussion ensemble played pieces of music which were cool. Zel played a solo on the saxophone..real awesome and i bet someone really really enjoyed it..haha but there was this irritating chinese guy taking digital photos with sound and flash! and he even asked eric and myself what school was playing..we were like wtf...wah thats fierce. Went to eat at glutton's park after the performance and reminisce about the past...just that i saw that irish ale is freaking 8 bucks! and beer was 1-2 bucks more than normal beers elsewhere...so we didnt buy...i bought oyster omelette which was delicious...the satay eric bought was good though..just not worth it...6 bucks for 10 sticks and some rice cakes....haha went home..and gave eric a lift again! Yayness.
[16th June - 18th June]
Think i studied the whole day plus gym...cant seem to recollect anything special on these days..damn my memory is failinG! Ahhhhhhh panic!
[19th June]
Math consultation! It was awesome to see ms pang again after such a long time..haha my favourite sarcastic math teacher...she is actually very friendly and funny...no wonder she is a school councillor too..I met Grace coz she also attended the math consultation. Before that i found a lizard stuck behind some tablet on the wall of LT3 and Grace got interested in it and started poking it with her ruler..haha it was damn cute...irritating the lizard..then i was like scaring Grace that the lizard would fall and jump on her...hahaha..back to math. Mrs Yeo was there too! And luckily i am not stupid coz i was stumped by the difficulty of ACJC prelim 2005 and Mrs Yeo ( My math S teacher ) admitted that it was a hard paper and not many ppl can score well in it. So i am not stupid! And she really guided me along in solving the questions...thx ms pang and mrs yeo for all your help. It was weird wearing the school uniform again..dang.
[20th June]
NALLU BIRTHDAY CELEBRATIONS! THE OFFICIAL LAST FUN TK GATHERING DURING THE JUNE HOLS AND I THINK IT WAS THE BEST!!!! Well supposed to meet brian and dehong at tampines mrt at 2pm BUT it was raining in the east and seems that both brian and dehong experienced traffic jams when they took their buses...see how efficient public transport and the road system are...cars rawk. So i met them at paya lebar mrt and talked about loads of stuff in the mrt...esp about the surprise attack on nallu. Reached tampines at 2.30 and we were rather frantic coz we havent really thought of a gift and it was almost time to meet the rest at 3...so we were searching high and low for the perfect gift...met zakir and he brought us to century square...and we finally bought a PCD and mariah carey CD 20 bucks...we bought those coz they are brown girls and nallu may drool at them...and their songs are rather nice..thats the munjen's gift for nallu.
Met Mathan Dehong Priya and Nallu at tampines int. We saw nithya but she was hanging out with her friend...so she didnt tag along...went to nallu's place and jacked each other on the bus as usual..haha miss the suanning. Reached his house and met his dad for the first time..real friendly dad. His family was very welcoming too. We met aravinth too. So the 9 of us squeezed into nallu's room and did nth! Yes there was nth to do..started off with poker cards but it got boring...so nallu suggested monopoly and we were on the verge of killing him.. then we decided to play truth or dare..but i think it was more of dirty dare or dare..coz it was mostly dares and everything was sex related...nallu had to a deco maniche gay dance...mathan had to do a lap dance..zakir and dehong had to kiss me and nallu..on the hand..haha brian deepan and aravinth had to spill the beans on certain truths...i had to do 20 sexy girl push ups...and priya had to put on nallu's pants for me...but all these are all in the name of fun...and indeed it was hilarious...plus got most of nallu on candid camera.
Ate canadian pizza! Nallu's treat. We sang happy bdae for him and he opened the present...the first one is a shirt from mathan! the second one is a shirt from deepan! the third one is a shirt from aravinth! and the last one is the CDs! The only non shirt gift! Hahaha..pizza was great. then mathan had to go...so i encourage everyone to go downstairs and take a group photo...hmmmm and mission impossible became possible..poured prickly heat into cups for everyone...and nallu was still happily smiling away...totally oblivious to whats going on..priya was taking the video and we poured the powder on him...and he was stunned..haha and he was very grateful to have friends like us...and he started hugging me...dammit y i kena...twice!
So we went up and played karem..the munjens slacked...i studied...yes studied. Priya played his synthesizer...brian played com...we watched madagascar and the rest went home..i stayed on coz my dad is picking me up..so i had a scabble showdown with nallu but it was interrupted coz my dad came earlier than expected...went home...and awesome day.
Update more later.
InD!gO plunged into darkness 2:36 AM
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Saturday, June 17, 2006
Hm sorry guys..yesterday i was too busy fixing up my new blogskin. Nice rite nice rite nice rite. Potrays the kind of image that i like. Ok continuing the update but before reading..be warned that i am gonna type about 10 plus days worth of events..yes i have super memory..haha
[8th June]
Coz i realised that mavis has the xmen 2 DVD that i have been frantically searching for...i headed to the east around noon to collect the DVD..but i didnt wanna travel all the way to the east to collect that..so i met up with priya to study..bought lunch at parkway..we ate the hokkien mee at vjc canteen and it was rather dry...vj was really quiet with some ppl studying in the canteen when there are aircon classrooms available...the outside atmosphere isnt that conducive for studying due to foreign workers spraying water...haha. Studied math. Met sasi nithya sara and keshaf ( sorry about the spelling ) Nithya's friends are nice..and the first kid i ever liked was keshaf...coz he was mature for his age. Sara and Keshaf went home so leaving priya nithya and myself. Did more math. Had dinner at the east coast macs. Awesome time spent even though we didnt really study much..but i feel that everytime i have a group study..i would end up catching up with the people more than i study...but its still cool..makes me feel not so guilty about having fun..haha...went home.
[9th June]
First day of world cup! Nithya's bdae! I feel kinda bad coz i didnt really buy a gift for her..so i bought her a choc sundae yest...haha..Study and Gym today. Watched the germany vs costa rica match..first time i actually watch the world cup.
[10th June]
Today is supposed to be an exciting day BUT it turned out to be a screwed up outing. Supposed to be a large group watching the long awaited Xmen3 but in the end only zj and i watched it. Nallu claimed that he landed his friend into the hospital coz he broke his nose...this is true btw...so nive and nallu didnt turn up. Mathan came but he watched the movie already and wanted to buy a book for his bro. The twins didnt turn up. Priya couldnt go coz she got tuition...so nithya cannot go and i cannot treat her either...soooooooooooo left me and zj..yes according to mathan it was kinda gay..ah but what the heck..we can have special munjen interaction...one on one..no foul play occurred dun worry...I am an official heterosexual who likes girls and not guys.
Anyway Xmen 3 wasnt that fantastic. The storyline sucks. Kinda rushed. Beast looked awfully beastly and blue. Nightcrawler is gone?! No gambit. Jean grey went insane and killed her bf cyclops. She also 'killed' professor X. Professor X transferred his soul to another body. Magneto supposedly loses his powers but he still has a little left. Mistique lost her powers even though she has a va-va-voom body in her human body. Rogue gave up her powers for Icy boy. Halle berry rawkz as usual. But the best i feel was pyro igniting the cars magneto flung..like meteors and the effects were wow. Wolverine rawked too.
So the movie was kinda upsetting. On to pool in lucky plaza! Long time no play! I can still do my backhand move man...quite an achievement. One on one with zj proved to be a challenge coz i am worse than him and my skills are rusty. Even my pivot sucks...gotta change it soon...yeah but it was awesome playing pool again even though it was with one other guy only...wished the others could have joined in.
Walked around while making prank calls to nallu..coz he was irritating us. Saying hello at least 20 times and asking where i am at least 15 times. Pro rite...desperadoes...anyway so we wasted his talktime and u can see his phone bill increasing coz zj has free incoming and we just left the phone on while playing hokkien songs. We were searching for brian's gift. But we cant think of anything! We finally thought of giving him a wallet. Went to ripcurl and bought a nice ripcurl wallet. Price is confidential though...muahahaha.
Shopped around myself when zj went home. Bought pants! Met up with priya nithya and mathan for prata at ubi. Maha bodhi was hosting some buddhist event. It was awesome to be in ubi again even though most of the shops are closed. Priya was the first one there and i thought i was late...We ate prata and chatted about pirates of the carribean..xmen...world cup..brian's gift...nonsense...lame jokes..and i cant believe netherlands and holland are the same place! I was enlightened! See how stupid i am and i got an A for geog. Unbelieveable. Went home feeling stupid..haha.
[11th June]
Study and Gym! Been eating too much fast food! And i am eating some more! More fats man!
[12th June]
Well i can say today isnt what i expected but it was still awesome. Brian's long awaited bdae celebrations! Venue: Brian's place. Well before that i went to parkway to buy stuff and flour. Mathan Dehong Zj Linhao Zamir Zakir Kenneth Andreas and myself were there. Anan was in india and nallu wants to study...so anyway...most of the day we were cracking jokes..laughing at linhao...playing cards and magic and worms...oh and soccer at brian's garden. Ate noodles with zj and dehong at Day and Night.
Fun part coming. Meet jingyang at his place to play soccer at the nearby field...well lets just say that linhao is as aggressive as ever...i score 2 goals !!! So close to hat trick...but nvm..i scored against linhao..so its still good. Andreas was so funny as a goalkeeper...haha and we had fun even though linhao was tackling...the field was freaking wet!
Met mathan at KFC for more fast food! Wooohooo fast food mania! FATS! Anyway brian treated us 5 superman meals...each worth 10 bucks...haha but it was good...free refill...mmmm..We cracked more jokes..almost sang happy bdae but decided not to..linhao was molesting zj..
On the way back to brian's place...we decided to take a group photo *innocent smile*. Zj was the camera man and i took out the bag of flour. Remember i bought 2 bags...so i was standing behind brian. 3...2..1.. and stupid brian sprayed deoderant into my mouth...last year it was perfume during my bdae...now deoderant..but i still poured the flour all over him...and everyone was cheering...and i scooped the flour and threw some more at him...hahahaha and he looked like a ghost! And he thought it was all over...but we continued walking and zamir pulled out the second one and poured all over him!!! Hahaha damn funny...brian ageing too fast...then we played at the playground when i was encouraged to do a striptease for brian..so i got on top of some see saw thing...and ppl started to strip me but no strength la..in the end nth came off...even though linhao was quite enthu...haha nvm.
Overall good day. Brian got 3 new wallets! But ours the best. He got a billabong pencil case from the twins too. Brian better help me buy heineken soon.
[13th June]
CLASS PARTY BUT I WILL UPDATE NEXT TIME. Tired. hahaha my memory rawkz.
InD!gO plunged into darkness 2:49 AM
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InD!gO plunged into darkness 2:49 AM
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Saturday, June 10, 2006
Ok this is an update on the second week of holidays. Super long digest coming up.
[4th June]
Judgment day has finally arrived. I was so reluctant to go through the day considering the fact that i need to do sth which requires a lot of courage..Today was the CO concert but it starts at 5.30. Well was supposed to meet eric at Tiong Bahru plaza around 2 but couldnt find him when i arrived at the place..so i went inside and i saw michelle chong and patricia mok! Michelle chong was hot.period..haha too bad jeanette aw or joanne peh werent there...met eric and bryan fang. Havent seen him for a long time and we caught up with stuff and suanning eric at grillers...eric the food at grillers suck...really...stop going there...then we went to the arcade..comic connection..and florist. And we realised there is a product called I squeeze..haha it sounded so wrong...
Bryan left after a while so leaving eric and myself. The funny part came when i ordered a guiness stout at a coffee shop. Well at least i learnt one thing from today..never drink alcohol before attending a concert just to drown my sorrows or make me less aware of my fears...i gulped down the can of alcohol and i turned freaking red..everyone was staring at me and i felt super hot...and kinda giddy too..and eric thought i was drunk so we went to the toilet at raffles place to sponge myself...haha but in the end it was eric who was drunk after drinking teh ping coz he sent an sms meant for edwina to me..cannot stand still in the mrt..and kinda blur..hahaha super funny.
CO concert was spectacular..a whole new experience coz i have been to band and choir. Refreshing to hear music from my origins...the roots of the chinese arts..enchanting and soothing to the ears..i love the guzheng and erhu...totally represents the chinese culture...surprisingly there were snare drums for CO! Hahaha but its like starting a new trend which is kinda cool. There was a cello duet performed by elgin and tovya which was fantastic btw..and eric said it was the first time he see tovya move so much...haha stupid eric...got soloists too and they were awesome. Overall the concert was great and money well spent. During the interval..i mustered up my courage to present her with a sunflower even though there were other ppl giving her better looking flowers..haha but at least i managed to praise her for her performance and not become some nervous wreck..haha but it was petrifying..well at least she was happy that the concert was a success...and i am satisfied at just that.
Good day. And i cant believe my alcohol tolerance is that bad! Must train!
[5th June]
Feeling kinda demoralised today coz of yesterday's incident...felt that i was just some insignificant person trying to achieve the top when i know i didnt stand a chance after all. But i manage to psycho myself out of this depression temporarily coz today is the start of chinese chess competition! Raffles cup at RJC. RJC is freaking ka ni na big la...omg..but not like i care...RJ girls are not bad too but AC girls better..hahaha anyway..won 2 lose 1 today..and i met wingtai!! Long time no see..so i talked to him quite a lot..and played loads of chess...good day.
At night, realise that brian cannot make it for the rest of the comp due to some personal matters...anyway we signed up for the comp for cca records...so dun feel too bad k.
[6th June]
Went back to RJC to tell the guys that they can go home after the first match. Stayed on till after the second match. Won 1 and Draw 1. Ate lunch at RJ and the food sucks and its damn ex...AC food better..haha..went home with wingtai and joel.
Went back to TK coz i was early for my badminton meeting with badminton khakis. Met my juniors whom i used to hang out with...realised they had extra lessons for DNT coz they are sec 4...gambatte guys...and i saw esme too! She had extra lessons and i was laughing at her...haha so bad of me but heck...we chatted a lot while waiting for her mom to pick her up.
Studied a bit in Geylang Serai CC. Played badminton when the gang came. Well my badminton aint too bad...long time never play since AC closed for school hols...haha...it was awesome to see ben kevin and mavis after such a long time...always playing badminton during hols..too bad jamie cannot make it...but definitely will play again with her next time before hols end. Went to parkway after badminton to shop around..and rich kevin enters every shop and buys sth from it...bloody rich indo..hahaha...got credit card already..ben also bought quite a few stuff till he is broke..lol..only mavis and i didnt buy anything...but trying on clothes can be fun..esp with friends...had dinner at parkway foodcourt. Banmian was filling. Swenson's earthquake was the desert..it was so not worth it coz the scoops of ice cream were so small and melting quite fast...haha but it was quite nice. Took pictures and just chatted like the good old days...went home.
[7th June]
STUDY AND GYM! NTH ELSE
Update the rest later..quite tired now...but before i go...Nive helped me find out sth...stuff about her even though i know its a wrong thing to do..its a betrayal of trust...but she FREAKING KNOWS !!!! SHE KNOWS SHE KNOWS SHE KNOWS!!!! I AM SO BLOOOOOODY DEAD... HOW THE HELL AM I GONNA FACE HER AND TALK TO HER IN THE FUTURE.... DAMN IT!!! ITS GONNA BE SO AWKWARD!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ERIC I GONNA HUNT U DOWN FOR MAKING THINGS SO OBVIOUS !
Damn. God save me.
InD!gO plunged into darkness 9:04 AM
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Saturday, June 03, 2006
[My immortal][Evanescence]
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
[Chorus]
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Let's see how good my memory is..recapping a week's worth of events.
[27th May]
Went to AC gym with eric in the morning. Had a real work out and i can see the determination in eric too, even though we are working out for different purposes and different sources of motivation. After gym we wanted to eat at ACSi. Eric was my tour guide as he brought me around the huge campus which was freaking huge btw..bigger than ACJC which is kinda sucky..didnt get to see ms au though..sad..no food at ACSi !! Pay so much money but the food outlets are closed due to 5 day week system..decided to eat at ITE but also no food !!! In the end after much walking..we ended up at dover market to finally eat. And eric is bugging me about his love as usual..haha..but i dun mind it coz i know his pain..i'd rather help him get closer to his goal..but it seems that their relationship is worsening as the days go by...which is kinda sad..ah well. After that we went home. Studied the rest of the day.
[28th May]
Nth much even though its a sunday. Studied the whole day. Sorted out stuff that needed to be filed. Worked out at my house gym. Thats about it.
[29th May]
Econs lesson early in the morning. Kinda boring coz we had to do 2 essay outlines and go thru answers after that. 3 hours of suffering. Fun part came when i arrived at andreas' house to celebrate his 19th bdae..( i thought he was 18 oops ). Brian idiot go tell me to avoid choc cakes so i bought a fruit cake but in the end turned out that andreas is allergic to fruits...anyway it was fun lighting candles, blowing candles, singing and cutting cakes..and all of that was recorded which is quite comical btw. The twins, zj brian andreas and myself played asshole daidee..CS and we wanted to gangbang andreas but only me brian and zj were in for it. In the end the video make it seem as though andreas is going berserk and raping all of us...hahaha damn fun..he even attacked zamir who was the camera man...hahaha. Then we played with his dog for a while..and ate pizza. Then the day wasnt over for me when everyone needed to go.
Choir performance up next! Actually i wasnt supposed to go but xueming couldnt go and he gave me a free ticket. Thx xueming! Went to the performance with eric and i ALMOST got lost in the esplanade..haha my sense of direction is improving slowly. Anyway, met up with eric and sat down..and as usual again he was bugging me about her and i am bugging him about myself..haha realised that brinden was seated in front of me with his gay friend..oh well..victoria and stephen and the rest of the choir put up a great performance. They even got off stage to mix with the audience while singing some mermaid song which was very enchanting and alluring. However, being my ignorant self..i cant really appreciate some of the songs so i felt kinda bored at some point of time..haha sorry vic and stephen. After the whole performance, we saw eric's ahem but he didnt dare to talk to her...dunno what he doing la...once bitten twice shy i guess..i havent kena bitten but later i will elaborate. The whole thing ended quite late.
[30th May]
NS checkup! Got lost in CMPB area. Almost didnt check in at the entrance..later they shoot me for being an intruder..haha. I saw a fellow ACsian who happened to be the discus thrower i see in school all the time. Went to loads of stations for a thorough checkup. Dental, blood, Xray, ENTS, Eye, limbs. ECG, weight and height measurement, blood pressure, medical history analysis and examination of sth very private...haha didnt see any blue tag guys..lucky. But saw some ppl with tatoos and piercings...and some ppl who got kinda freaked when they had their blood drawn. The IQ test is the most boring one..had to take 1 hour to finish it..whole thing ended at 3 when i started at 10..haha oh well. Most of my energy was drained so i didnt do anything much after that.
[31st May]
More econs lessons. Boring all the way. Gym training resumed but i realised that i was still feeling kinda weak so i slacked quite a bit. ACJC won Golf for guys! Congrats mathan! Even though he said he didnt really perform his best..he is still the best golfer in the eyes of GD! Well done mathan!
[1st June]
Shit is 1st june already. Lazy go anyway so it was a day off for me. Simply slacked and studied and slacked and studied. Rushing my econs essays! Freak la i was like panicking coz i needed to finish 4 essays by 3rd june. Freaked out.
[2nd June]
Realised i had some more essays left incompleted so i didnt go to gym with eric in the morning.. Rushing thru essays. Fun part was at night when it was time for AC idol. Victoria was fantastic..she sang really well and her dress was kinda hot..haha no wonder the judges made some comments to cover up their true emotions..ahem ahem..mr lim see poi was there too..most of my class was there too to support the class. Loads of arts students and supporters from the other ACS schools. 8 finalists at first had to sing 2 songs each. Ethel Joshua Victoria Amaryash and Yuresh were the top 5. Everyone thought it was between Ethel and Joshua to win AC idol. I personally liked Amaryash coz he is the drama type who brings life to the comp. He is a damn good enthu punk rocker who sang matchbox 20 too..haha. Victoria was awesome too..the way she sang bridge over troubled waters and zombie..and voiceman by aguilera. I feel that victoria sang the best but she lacked supporters..thats y this kind of competition is unfair. So drumroll..results are revealed..everyone was shocked when ethel was 4th place with victoria. In the end, the youngest of the lot, yuresh from ACS barker won AC idol...everyone was shocked...haha but at least there is some justice in the world...
Went home thinking about how she took so little notice of my presence...damn...
[3rd June]
Woke up in the morning to receive a piece of shocking news. Seems that she likes someone after all...i knew i didnt stand a chance in the first place..i have no idea who the guy is...even though i really wanna know....gym training was even more intensive just to try and drive away my sorrow and depression..but to no avail. Handed up the econs assignment and met up with Sunita who came over to do her SAT.
I just dunno what to do anymore..I find it so hard to give up on her..even though i dont really know her well..i really wanna get the chance to know her better somehow....but that may be impossible now that she has someone in mind...not maybe..it is impossible..i should just admire her from far..i would still view her as my motivation to becoming stronger...to become a better man..but i will not expect anything in return...i simply have no idea what i am doing anymore...all i feel is emptiness and depression now..damn.
Tmr is gonna be a depressing day...wonder how am i gonna survive it...wonder whats gonna happen...This concludes the first week of the so called happy june holidays.
InD!gO plunged into darkness 5:53 AM
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