Thursday, September 22, 2005
Sugarcult rocks my socks !! Listening to bouncing off the walls again..and stuck in america..really motivates me to study. Fast drumming..cool guitar..great singer..all complimenting each other and blend into one happening rock song...real cool..strongly recommend sugarcult songs to those in need of motivation...it get rids of fatigue too..haha
Ok today is just like any other normal sch day...all except for one stupid incident in AC lift which sort of pissed me off..ok not sort of..really pissed me off..imagine this scenario..i am in the lift with 2 other guys and 1 girl. I dunno who they are. ok then a male teacher comes into the lift...
Teacher: Hey boy ( talking to me ) how come u didnt change before going for lessons ?
Danver: I just finished PE..gonna change when i reach my floor...
Teacher: U should have changed before entering the lift..how can u make a girl smell the stench..
Danver: Uhm..ok..
2 guys: 'sniggering at a corner of a lift'
Girl: 'making some weird expression on her face'
Teacher: Next time change first ok...
Danver: But i just finished PE..and i have lessons the next period..
Teacher: Still change before u enter the lift. Are u in science stream ?
Danver: Err..yeah..
Teacher: Well u should know organic chem..some esters smell nice and some smell bad.
Danver: Ok..
Teacher: 'Goes on blabbing about organic chem which was like irrelevent..
Danver: Ok wateva..
And i got out of the lift..just feeling pissed off..Doing a kind deed doesnt get u anything good in return...so true..argh wateva not gonna be frustrated over some teacher
Anthony is reaching Singapore tmr !!! Cant wait..and gonna study with jingyang mathan and priya in the morning before meeting him...
Thats it for this blog..one more week to promos..YAY !! So happy ! Its gonna be over soon..this horrid period of time is gonna be over...muahahaha
CyaZ.
InD!gO plunged into darkness 8:19 PM
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Wednesday, September 21, 2005
N'Sync [Gone]
There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Oh, seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change
Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..
You're gone..
You're gone..
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...
I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
Time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to
So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone..
You're gone..You're gone
You're gone...you're gone..
you're....Gone
Oh what'll I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me
Oohhh...I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone..You're gone..
You're goneYou're gone
GoneYou're gone..But the truth remains
You're....
My sentiments exactly...in a dilemma now...stressed and depressed...argh...
Nth much to blog about..just wanna post the song..mixed emotions..going to meet anthony soon..and maybe meeting up with my clique to study...argh why am i so vexed about promos..its just freaking promos..just get promoted and worry about A lvls later..i think whats stressing me up is seeing my classmates and friends in AC mugging their way like during O lvls..really scary..like those nanyang, methodist girls, acs guys...just studying like nobody's business..and i am just slacking around..not even putting in serious efforts to study...oh well..
Ah heck..not gonna think about it too much..gonna live life to the fullest..i mean my life is not all about studies..promos may be important..but i am not gonna stress myself out too much..wateva..gonna meet up with friends so i shld stay happy...yay.
Gtg do maths and pw crap..haha gonna stay strong and happy...cyaZ.
InD!gO plunged into darkness 10:04 PM
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Monday, September 19, 2005
Memory
Havent been blogging for the past few days coz i had loads of things to attend to..oh btw readers..my life issnt that terrible..just that i read a classmate's blog and got really depressed...really i am ok..haha
OK anyway..mid-autumn celebrations in AC was uber fun. Met up with Eric and Xueming to get some free food from the canteen..courtesy of the CF..haha then we watched the chinese orchestra (CO) and CCS perform. The CO played melodious music with their instruments which blends in with the eerie atmosphere of the night. Soothing chinese music + full moon + mooncakes + loads of friends around + dark atmosphere = really fond memories... But everything changed when i saw linhao dancing and singing to some chinese tune..and we just burst into laughter and spoilt the peaceful environment..hahaha but it was damn funny..with his weird hairstyle and dance moves..its hard to surpress the immature kid within us to burst into laughter...hahaha..then we watched dodgeball in the basketball court..really cool..my first open movie..and lanterns were lit even though some caught fire..hahaha
That was friday's events..on to saturday's events..woke up at 2 !!! My own personal record..can anyone beat that ??? Haha bet no one can...ok anyway..had an important 4a gathering at kenneth's place to see suhendra..yup he came back from seattle for a visit..Upon reaching there..we ate loads of junk food..played mahjong and cards..played pS2 and Xbox and chatted with old friends..had a wonderful time catching up with ppl like sengyong whom i havent seen for ages...lol..yeah and i reached home at around 11 and my mom was pissed..haha
Sunday...woke up real early to study my econs..finished studying but still needs some fine tuning..oh well..econs is a hard subject after all..then made my way to the east to study with priya..actually deepan and nallu were gonna celebrate mathan's bdae at mathan's place..but they are watching a lame man u vs liverpool match which i am not interested in..yeah so i didnt join them..played scrabble with priya's family..studied econs and maths and chatted about JC life ...yeah so it was kinda cool..just hope my mom doesnt see this entry coz she forbids me to go to girl's places..esp alone..she has loads of weird ideas..ok anyway yeah seems that priya is going thru tough times..but dun worry k..u are gonna get promoted and get over this tough time soon..stay strong yeah..all of us should..thats the way to success...hahaha sounds so corny...urgh..
Finally i have blogged..happy readers ? happy ? not happy then too bad..i am supposed to stop typing and go take a bath but i am just being lame danver here..typing nonsense just to waste ur time...muahahahahahahahahahahaha.....( linhao laughter which is kinda horrid btw.. )
Oh i forgot today's events..its MATHAN's bdae !!! BUT we didnt get to strip him coz he was 'busy'..ahem ahem..nvm..he promised us that tmr we can get to strip him...gonna get ready my video cam and film the entire process and blackmail him in the future...muahahaha..evil danver...
Thats all..Peace out ppl..and stay strong no matter what.CyaZ
InD!gO plunged into darkness 6:06 PM
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Friday, September 16, 2005
[D]epression.
Over the past few months...i have been struggling with my life ever since i have been separated from my friends in TK and MJC... really really really miss the east...no point lamenting over it..just like what mathan would sae..but i just cant help it...i mean i know nth in the west..like some foreigner in Singapore...i feel like i have been treated as an outcast..mostly my fault coz i appear antisocial and sorts..unwilling to bond with the 1SD5 and have so few friends in AC...maybe to some ppl i appear dao even...sorry guys..just that its really difficult for me to make friends all over again..Reasons: 1) Most of my friends have gone to different JCs..and my best friends have gone overseas...so it really hurts just to see them off at the airport...and the pure agony of thinking about them and missing those TK days...now i am exposed to a totally different culture with different ppl..totally submerged in solitude...2) Have an agenda to fulfil..which is to be acknowledged by ppl around me..instead of being treated like some insignificant creature...3) Ppl in AC are really different from the east..reputation is important..everyone daoing one another..everyone has their own cliques already...
As a result..i will just have my shadow for company..my TK friends in AC have their own cliques except for me..just dun mix with the class..dunno y...i like the ppl..cant explain y i dun mix with them..probably hanging on to the past too much..but the thing is that now i just suffer loneliness everyday..going to sch is just to train myself..improve and upgrade..dun really have much fun coz i have no friends to have fun with...issit my imagination or are my classmates making fun of me being antisocial ? No one knows...
Not that anyone cares anyways..my parents are as good as divorced..friends are far away from me..so its just have to learn to be independent..treating this 2 year course as a training schedule to really improve my body mind and soul. Dun wanna be weak..dun wanna give in to anything...just wanna prove myself to the world..and exceed my own limits..but most importantly..dun wanna be alone. ( even though i think its quite impossible in AC..)
No one understands...
Going to the gym more frequently than ever...trying desperately to open up..really wanna help my classmates out..its just a matter of accepting my help...trying to study..about 2 more weeks to promos ? lol... argh wateva..
Sorry readers..for this long depressing entry..not like many ppl read anyway..niteZ
InD!gO plunged into darkness 1:26 AM
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Thursday, September 01, 2005
GD rawkz and sucks at the same time..sounds really ironic but u will understand y as u read on...
Ok..i went to Mountbatten CC early in the morning to meet my 4A peepz to play badminton..it was really fun despite the fact that my badminton skills have gone rusty..haha but still..meeting up with them was great..catching up with one another and just chatting and playing...had a private chat with benjamin too..one of my good friends in TK..sounds like he is doing ok in SA and he still hates tan pui ling !Hahaha ! After badminton..we had to say goodbye coz i needed to meet my gang to watch a movie..so yeah it was kinda sad for a while...
Met up with jingyang and brian at the bus stop near mountbatten..ok here's the thing as to y i said GD rawkz and sucks..GD sucks coz the members make loadsa false promises..as in they agree to turn up but in the end they dont..secondly, most of them are so unenthusiastic !!! Mostly mugging for promos or just plain broke..urgh..and jingyang and brian were late to meet mathan at paya lebar MRT..so thats the sucky part of GD..met mathan and zj at paya lebar and made our way to lido...
We wanted to watch the maid..so we ate KFC while waiting for andreas..luckily i waited at the entrance and i spotted andreas in time... the maid wasnt scary..except for one part when i got a shock coz mathan was bugging me continuously..trying to scare the wits out of me..haha that bugger..then zj was like covering his ears for nth throughout the whole movie...and mathan tried to scare him during the movie but he was too far away..lol..overall the movie sucked and it was a waste of time and money..but the strange part of the whole thing was that it was filmed at a house near haig girls..near TK !!! haha weird...
After the movie..andreas left..and we played pool at lucky plaza..lol i really suck in pool now..really...anyway..the guys came to my house after pool to watch american pie 1 and 2..haha i think they liked the movies..yup it was great hanging out with them..
Peace out..CyaZ
InD!gO plunged into darkness 9:00 PM
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