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The isolated one
Name: Danver
Age: 19
Starsign: Leo
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Saturday, March 31, 2007
I compare myself to others way too much. It's mentally and physically exhausting. Nowadays i have been feeling so frustrated with my family, my friends and my life, so much so that i will throw my temper around everyday i come home from army camp. Its been super unfair to the people around me but i just cant contain the anger within me. I have supressed my feelings for far too long..and i cant to share with others how i really feel. I feel that its futile, coz after all that talking and counselling, the problem will still be there.
I hunger for the feeling of superiority. Not that i want to show off to others that i am good but desire to feel good about myself. I really look forward to the day when i can actually accept who i am and not compare anymore. But i dunno whether that day would actually come. Honestly, i am sick of comparing. It is being really unfair to myself as a human being. One part of me wants to strive for greater heights but its being obsessive in that task, one part wants to be contented with the life i am currently living and just take things as it comes. I am torn between my 2 totally different mindsets...so much so that i become numb when i hang out with friends or family..
I wish that something would happen that would drastically change my life for the better.
InD!gO plunged into darkness 8:57 AM
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