Ambassador of darkness, drowning in a pool of misery

Friday, May 26, 2006

Finally school holidays have arrived !!! Its finally here! Omg i cant believe it..i am still in the stage where i still think there is school tmr...must be prelims and As stress. Ok anyway not only that..this is my 100th blog entry so its gonna be long and eventful. So grab a cup of coffee and read the whole post if you want to..haha.

Well victoria won meridian 4-2. According to mathan it was a good match despite the rain and whatnot. It was a good match between 2 talented soccer teams but it seemed that even though meridian was leading 1-0 in the first half..they got complacent and let in 3 goals in the last 5mins of the match..one of the players even punched the ball away to prevent victoria from scoring a goal...as a result it was a red card and penalty...how stupid. Whatever la..anyone can tell me that victoria is super talented and they trained real hard and deserve the win...luckily i didnt go there..otherwise i would be pissed off by the wet atmosphere and seeing mj lose would be too much...even though i get to see my friends. I admit meridian is kinda arrogant too..but victoria is over the limit. Come on la..you make it sound as though your whole word revolves around soccer...its bcoz arrogant ppl like you exist that make normal average ppl's lives so miserable. The worst part..you find joy in flaunting your victories in front of weaker ppl..how pathetic. There are also ppl who ride in other ppl's glories when all they did was cheer. There is nth to proud of...we are all fellow singaporeans and yet we are so divided. There is simply no justice in the world.

I feel sad for the meridian soccer players. Despite their arrogance, it is due to victorian's arrogance that triggers off such a chain reaction. That aside, all their efforts have been wasted when they cant beat victoria...even though they got second place. I pity the goalkeeper especially...ah well..harsh reality.

On a lighter note, today was a rather eventful day. Science lessons were as per normal. Supp lessons were super slack as always. We watched documentaries about lesbian marriages and raped paskistan women. Felt kinda sick after watching. Viewer discretion. Last math lesson of term 2 was super funny with the sarcastic ms pang still as sarcastic as ever and laughing to herself..haha but it was hilarious and we all love ms pang. PE was intense..played ultimate frisbee against a stronger team and we were like running back and forth..jumping and catching under the hot sun...after that i supported xueming when he was taking his napfa and he passed !!!! Congrats xueming !!! Everyone is proud of u! Haha..after that got gym training...and i saw evy, stephen and hanfei walking from the badminton hall and realised that evy and hanfei are going for the malay performance which i was supposed to go too. They wanted to go holland V to eat in the heavy rain at 7 when the performance starts at 8..crazy..so i stayed behind and ate instand noodles and when it started..they made it back on time! Miraculous. Seems those 2 are on good terms too...hahaha ok stop the teasing. Realised that nive was there too! And i made a new friend too. Chareli seet from 2SC2.

The performance was awesome. My malay teacher Dave Alexander was the main character! So proud of him. The story is about China during the revolution during Mao's time. Talking about a love affair between a married doctor and a mistress. Some scary scenes and super funny court drama. Statements made were...'men have needs' and 'discard the old to look for new ones'. Hahaha so true. But obviously not all guys are like that. Made fun of nive throughout the whole show about nallu and her eyecandy in AC...haha so funny..tag team with chareli to tease nive...then nallu told me not to pester her..someone angry already...hahaha.

End of school. Beginning of pure torture. Not happy holidays exactly. More like happy sufferings instead. All the best ppl..make good use of the one month. Peace out.

InD!gO plunged into darkness 8:00 AM

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Better version of a song in my previous post.

[Tonight]

Woke up with yawn, it's dawn and i'm still alive.
Turned on my radio to start a new day.
As goddamn DJs chattered, how to survive.
Amazing news got over on the airwave.

Tonight, love is rationed.
Tonight, across the nation.
Tonight, love infects worldwide.
Almost another day.

She's a shooting star, goodnight, goodnight...
She's a shooting star, goodbye...

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Nth much to blog about. Mission impossible outing was kinda impossible to start with. Only mathan kenneth eric and myself went. At least eric got to meet kenneth. Digital movies are better than regular movies..no more fuzzy lines. Bought hot dog huge popcorn and large pepsi. Maggie Q isnt that hot after all. No hot babes in the movie. Tom cruise was kinda cool but this comment doesnt suggest that i am gay. Action packed movie full of suspense and twists. Unexpected plot and i still cant figure out what the hell the rabbit's foot is...maybe some biohazard chemical bomb gadget thing. Vatican City rawkz. One funny scene where they had to distract the chinese guards on the building tops in order to enter the building to steal the rabbit's foot. Soooo they started shooting baseballs which kinda freaked those chinese guards out..and they started talking in chinese..hahaha.

Man..i am tired. Motivation is still there but i am just mentally and physically tired..Damn.

InD!gO plunged into darkness 5:31 AM

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

NE dialogue was boring. Some public speaker from Ministry of Foreign affairs came over to talk to us. Cant believe ppl actually paid attention and were kinda enthusiastic when it comes to Question and Answer session...

Man i completely lost to him. I know its torture to keep on comparing myself with others..it really undermines the purpose of my existence...i will just continue to look down on myself and never find the faith that i really need to regain my self confidence. Praying to God wont work for me coz when i pray to Buddha, i will never expect anything in return..be it luck or blessings..sure it would be good to have them but i will never pray just for the sake of getting those. If Buddha decides to give them to me..then good for me. However, back to what happened today, it was kinda saddening to realise that it was utter defeat for me. Obviously clicking with him was much easier. Ah well it was never meant to be anyway. Not like i stood a chance in the first place. Trying my best to psycho myself to give up but i cant bear to..how weak and pathetic.

Chess was exciting. Training was intensive. Had gym training again today. Decided that everyday i am going to either go to gym or exercise. Wanna achieve a better body for myself and become a better man. Sounds stupid? But thats one of my goals.

Oh i suddenly remembered. Most of my classmates totally disregard Mdm Clare Teo's presence today. During chem lesson, ppl were answering phone calls and laughing and chatting without respecting the teacher at all. I found it rude but i just didnt have the courage to yell at the class for their outrageous behaviour...and i call myself a Leo...and the teacher completely gave up on us. I understand how she must feel everytime its time to teach 2SD5. Sure we are nice ppl but most of us simply cant differentiate the time for fun and the time to get serious. Honestly thats the difference between 2SD4 and 2SD5. If by chance this paragraph is viewed by my classmates..whatever they can get angry for all i care. I have been tolerating their noise lvl and inconsiderate actions for the past how many months..and not like they like me that much or anything..so i have nth to lose. Most of my classmates are totally insensitive to the teacher's feelings. And what did we do today? Point fingers and push the blame to michelle for calling ppl during chem lesson even though it wasnt entirely her fault. Can tell that the class kinda dislike michelle..but it just wasnt fair for her. Not only that..when the teacher stormed out of the classroom..we wanted to end the whole thing by saying a simple sorry and hope everything would be back to normal. Plz this is typical primary school behaviour? We are like JC students using a primary school tactic to get things back to normal? Hello. reality check..grow up la..no point saying sorry and reverting back to ur noisy selfs and hysterical laughters that can wake the dead. We ought to respect teachers more..who do we think we are.

I dare to say all that in my blog but not in real life...how loserfied...

On to more math hw and revision and blah blah blah. Bleaurgh. Wonder what will happen tmr. Would mdm still be angry? Would the class be remorseful or just try to end it with a simple sorry? Who knows...wateva.

InD!gO plunged into darkness 5:58 AM

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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Class party was on the 30th april. Got to see everyone in home clothes instead of the usual school uniform..haha and i contributed ice lemon tea. Lucky for the canoeists who cant drink soft drinks. Here is a movie review of the famous gay film, Brokeback mountain. I feel it was overrated and the big hooha over it was coz they heard there is gay action in the movie. There were a couple of gay scenes but they were nth much..haha the girls were squealling when the gays were making out and making love...but i have to admit it was a whole new experience watching those 2 main characters going at it. Sad storyline though. It kinda reflects how the present society judges gays. There was a funny scene when the gays were hugging each other and rolling down the hill which resembled the hill in teletubbies. And the gays ended up fighting which was kinda scary. Overall..i think the movie was slow moving. 2/5 stars coz the storyline was kinda boring and very little humour. Gay action was interesting though.

On to boring events in the afternoon. Pity lidan and pamela coz they came in the afternoon and had to leave around the evening when the fun started. Tovya came but she left coz she forgot she has to meet someone else..haha. The barbecue was fun. Helped carry stuff. Cooking was done by michelle and geri...fantastic bbq food. Everyone had a great time. The unveiling of the first class coupled occurred when we were chowing down. Haha its cool and i wish them all the best.

More ppl came and it was on to photo taking at the playground. Both sexes were posing and playing in swings. Some unglam candid shots were made. Saw kids fighting in the playground... Back to Eunice's place where Memoirs of a Zhang Ziyi was screened. Watched it before but i love zhang ziyi so it was awesome watching that movie again. The girl playing Chiyo is pretty too..hahaha but i am not paedo. Went home quite late.

Today had GP mock exam! Quite ok. First time i can finish the paper with ease. Hope i can do well. Long day tmr. Contemplating whether i am gonna watch the mj vs ac soccer match or play badminton with eric and xueming..see the circumstances and the weather tmr.

Getting tired of blogging. But i wanna jot down my youthful days. Then i can reminisce about wrong decisions and my cowardice....ahhhhh i need more self confidence...freak.

InD!gO plunged into darkness 7:04 AM

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