Tuesday, January 17, 2006
[All That I've Got]
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I..
I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh all I want inside
I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hardI stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
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ENOUGH!!! Damn it !!! Hate it when ppl make use of me when they need me and cast me aside like some tool when i am not in need. Certain individuals are freaking pissing me off. They take me for granted. Its bad enough that i am this angsty teen with the emo and stress and stuff but adding to my burden and sufferings are these few ppl who make use of me. What am i supposed to do? Say no to u guys when u want my help? Oh i would love that so very much...just that my conscience is going against me..otherwise i would have just blew my top and bombarded u guys with vulgarities and even take the opportunity to sever all ties. Sure i may seem like some immature brat and all that..but how would u feel if u realised that u have been such a fool over the past few years..helping ppl who dun even appreciate ur kindness..helping ppl who forgets what u have done for them..well i am that kind of fool. Kindness doesnt beget kindness.
Then i would ask myself. Y do i help then..if by helping ppl would make me feel so bad about myself..y help..? Conscience.
Freak.
InD!gO plunged into darkness 3:52 AM
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